Time is not on my side. Thanksgiving is right around the corner and I still have so much to do. I made the mistake of looking at my calendar the other day which only made me realize how little time I have. And as my to-do list gets longer, I get a cold which just makes me want to sleep. My body seems to have quit trying to keep up with me. I went to the doctor today and was prescribed some amazing cough syrup that will knock me out, so I'm looking forward to that. Having a cold is awful. I have no energy for anything. I'm too tired to do anything fun, and focusing on school work is even harder. Yesterday I was privileged to spend nine hours of my Sunday studying for a test. One thing I definitely learned is that shots of espresso are life savers.
Can I just mention something that I love about fall? Fall means pumpkins, and pumpkins mean pumpkin bread, cookies, and muffins which I LOVE. All day I've been craving one of these delicious pumpkin treats! Fall also means the beginning of the holiday season. I can't believe Thanksgiving is almost here. I know that we're having a family reunion, but I'm looking forward to just relaxing on the river and seeing my family (like the ones I know). Oh and I can't forget the food! Home-cooked meals for almost a whole week! I don't know how I'm going to be able to eat in the caf after that.
Two of my friends and I went and saw a movie called "Waiting for Superman". It's a documentary about the public school system in America. It was like a rollercoaster watching that movie. One moment I would be extremely angry about how kids fall through the system and the quality of school systems; then I would start crying because I can't see the solution. There are so many parents out there struggling to provide a better life for their kids and not finding any support from schools or teachers. Teaching is about each individual student. I don't want to work for the politics or the system. I want to work for the kids. I can't change the world, but I can change how a child sees the world.
Go see that movie. It is completely worth it.
Monday, October 25, 2010
Thursday, October 7, 2010
May the peace of Christ be with you
Tonight as I made my way across campus back to my apartment I realized something. I generally make this walk every night, but there was something different about tonight. Silence. The campus was silent. I couldn't even hear the waves from the ocean. And after a long, tiring day, my mind was finally silent. The negative images and thoughts were no longer rustling through my head. Tonight on my walk I was reminded of what peace feels like.
Maybe I should let you all in on my day a little bit. I was dreading today for awhile. Today is my friend's birthday. Sadly, he isn't with us to celebrate birthdays anymore. I am reminded of him daily, but today everything seemed to be intensified. Let's just say I've spent a good amount of today with tears running down my face or doing my best to distract myself from thinking. My brain would not slow down. I went to chapel twice today and found myself struggling to worship and focus on the messages. I even had more trouble than usual sitting still. I was not resting in the peace of Christ and ultimately not fixing my eyes on Him.
I believe that you allow Christ to live through you. I began feeling His peace and stillness not during church but when I was with my friends. I know they want Jesus to shine through them and I know they love me. As I walked home in the silence, I was reassured that God wants me here. Although this year has been my hardest, it has also been my most rewarding. Through everything, I have grown closer to Jesus. I have learned to trust Him. I have been blessed to make some amazing friends here who I can grow with and learn from. I'm truly thankful for them daily. God has shown me His love and grace. I know that hard times are still to come. Life is never going to be easy and perfect, but after this year I know God is faithful and will never leave me. He will make beauty from ashes.
Happy Birthday CMS
10/6/89 - 01/28/10
Maybe I should let you all in on my day a little bit. I was dreading today for awhile. Today is my friend's birthday. Sadly, he isn't with us to celebrate birthdays anymore. I am reminded of him daily, but today everything seemed to be intensified. Let's just say I've spent a good amount of today with tears running down my face or doing my best to distract myself from thinking. My brain would not slow down. I went to chapel twice today and found myself struggling to worship and focus on the messages. I even had more trouble than usual sitting still. I was not resting in the peace of Christ and ultimately not fixing my eyes on Him.
I believe that you allow Christ to live through you. I began feeling His peace and stillness not during church but when I was with my friends. I know they want Jesus to shine through them and I know they love me. As I walked home in the silence, I was reassured that God wants me here. Although this year has been my hardest, it has also been my most rewarding. Through everything, I have grown closer to Jesus. I have learned to trust Him. I have been blessed to make some amazing friends here who I can grow with and learn from. I'm truly thankful for them daily. God has shown me His love and grace. I know that hard times are still to come. Life is never going to be easy and perfect, but after this year I know God is faithful and will never leave me. He will make beauty from ashes.
Happy Birthday CMS
10/6/89 - 01/28/10
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