Saturday, May 28, 2011

So Far...

Under the most magnificent night sky I have ever seen, I cried.

Uganda is beyond beautiful. Words and pictures can’t even begin to describe its beauty. I’m surrounded by luscious green hills and fields, children’s laughter, and bright smiles. Don’t let me fool you though- it’s been quite an adventure. We arrived Wednesday morning into Entebbe where we met Fred, the founder of Hope Care Child Program. He drove us into Kampala and dropped us off at a hotel to rest. That was a surprise. We originally planned on going straight to the orphanage, but we soon learned that surprises were just something to get use to. The hotel was quite the experience. The next morning we left at 6 to make the journey to the orphanage. It was interesting to drive through the different towns and villages. After four hours of driving, Fred told us that there would be no electricity or running water as we turned onto the dirt road towards HCCP.

After dropping off our stuff in our room, we heard the kids playing outside, so we quickly found our rain boots and jackets and went to play. They were shy at first, but then began surrounding us. One little girl, Benita- I’ll probably mention her quite a bit- ran to me and buried her face in my skirt. Since then, it’s hard to say that I’m not in love with her. You can’t help but smile when you look at her even when she pouts. She’ll stand in front of me, hold my hands, and lean back into my legs. She looks me straight in the eyes and speaks to me in Luganda (I’m slowly learning most of what she tells me is silly things like the swing set or the yellow bead she found in the grass). She eats and breaks everything. Today I caught her putting rocks in her mouth, and she even considered trying chalk. She is adorable, and every morning I look forward to seeing her.

When we arrived, Fred told us the well is broken which is where they normally get their water. Since there is no well, that means we cannot shower and the kids must walk a half hour to the river to fetch water. Yesterday Kristin and I decided to walk with the kids and carry a jerry can ourselves. It was extremely hard. The kids run to the river, so they can swim. I didn’t know this and ended up running with them. Once I got there, they begged me to swim, but I used my better judgment (or maybe my mom’s judgment) and declined. After the short swim, they begin the journey back. It was painful. My arms and legs were burning. By the time we reached the orphanage after taking plenty of breaks, we were drenched in sweat and out of breath. Little kids half my size were carrying huge cans on their heads. It amazes me that they do this everyday and how strong they are. Today they asked for us to go with them again, so we did but decided to pass on the jerry cans. However, only a few minutes into the walk back, Kristin and I both had jerry cans in our hands. Neither of us felt right about holding a hand of a nine year old while she struggled to carry this can of water. Today’s walk was a lot easier. I kept thinking about Benita, Ruth, Favour, and other little kids back at HCCP who relied on these older kids to bring water everyday.

Tonight was our first night staying up past seven. We went to sit with the kids on the porch while they had dinner, which is what we do for breakfast and lunch. By this time, it was dark out. We used our headlamps to give them some light, and the house-mom moved the girls inside. They all just sat on the floor in the dark eating poscho and beans. After awhile, I saw Benita get up, leave her bowl on the ground, and go into the other room. She passed by me determined. She came back a few minutes later with a rag in her hands and began cleaning the floor around her- she must have spilled. Tears came to my eyes as I watched this four year old in the middle of a dark room cleaning. I don’t know how to describe it. I tucked her into bed and held her hand until she fell asleep. As I was about to leave, one of the older girls came over, undressed her, and put Sarah next to her. I know that is normal here and not a bad thing at all, but seeing them sleeping curled up naked on this small bed together made me cry. This is where I am. In the middle of the jungle in Uganda- in God’s midst.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Is This Real Life?

Is today's date really May 23rd? It can't be. I've imagined this day for months and months. It's impossible that it's actually here. But yet here I am... sitting in the airport waiting to board a plane. Many people have asked if I'm nervous or excited, and my answer has been no (sometimes naturally I reply yes to the excited question), but truthfully I've felt nothing. I was beginning to think something was wrong with me. I wanted to be giddy with excitement but couldn't. Now as I sit here I'm shaking. I can't believe this is finally happening.

So many things have happened since my last post, so let me give you a brief update. First, let's celebrate because we raised $8,000 to buy beds for the kids in Uganda which surpassed our goal of $7,200! God truly does provide and continues to amaze me. My first year at Point Loma is over, and I'm shocked to say that I am now a senior in college. Weird. "Time flies when you're having fun?" Next year will be so much fun and I'm anxious to see the plans God has for me. Also- let me put any doubts out of your minds... if you have not seen me, yes I did cut my hair. It is now above my shoulders. I donated 11 inches to Locks of Love. It will make this trip to Africa easier, and I am blessed to have hair that can grow back while others don't have hair at all. It's simple. They can have some of mine.

I have amazing family and friends. The support and love I have received the past few days has been phenomenal. I know you all are praying, and I thank you. It means so much to know I have such a great support system back home. Aunt Teri gave me a necklace that says "A family's love is nature's masterpiece." I have been wearing it since Saturday, and I'm continually thinking about you all. I'll miss you.

Here we go. Let the adventures begin. I am as ready as I'll ever be.

"You can kiss your family and friends good-bye and put miles between you, but at the same time you carry them with you in your heart, your mind, your stomach, because you do not just live in a world but a world lives in you." -Frederick Buechner

Monday, May 2, 2011

You hold my world in Your hands

My mind is a little scattered lately so forgive me if this isn't the most thought-out post. I figured it was time for an update however.

Let's see... last week started off with some ups and downs. Kristin called me at work on Monday to tell me that we had raised over the $4,000 needed to buy beds for the kids in Uganda. I felt a huge weight lifted off my shoulders, and we were both so excited. About an hour later, she called again, but this time the news wasn't so exciting. We had raised enough to get all the kids off the floor but would need to raise around $7,500 to get each kid their own bed. With 27 days left, I broke down and cried. I hate crying, but I couldn't fight it any longer. And I'll admit, it felt so good to just cry. That night we emailed every professor at school and even some celebrities including Oprah, Ellen, Regis and Kelly, Tyra Banks, and Dr. Phil. We have nothing to lose so why not! My stress level has decreased dramatically since then. I've accepted that we have and are still doing the best we can and have raised a lot of money so far. No matter what, there won't be kids sleeping on the floor without mosquito nets and that was our main goal.

I also bought my plane ticket and got my vaccinations last week. You would think it would hit me a little bit that I leave soon, but nope. Saturday night I finally was overly excited. I was reading a packet from the founder of the Ugandan orphanage, and my heart began racing. I was overjoyed and ready to get on the plane right then. But I still have to finish school. I'm on my last normal week of classes and of course it is extremely nice out when I have so much to do. I don't know what is more shocking: that my first year at Point Loma is already over or that I only have one more year of college left. Time is something I just can't hold onto. For my senior year, I will be living with Kristin in the junior/sophomore dorm called Finch. I will be one of the three Covenant group leaders (basically spiritual/Bible study leader) for the building. I'm really excited for how God is going to teach and use me next year in Finch.

Three weeks from today I board a plane. I still need $1,000 for my trip, and we need about $2,000 for beds. Today I'm not that worried about it which is nice. God is in control. This trip is in His hands. As easy as that is to say, I am learning to truly trust and rely on it. Everything is in His hands, not mine.